Today I am going back to my city again... because my studies are completed.... Hurray!
And you know what's the best part?
I'm going to meet my old best friend today. She and I have been friends since our childhood.
Ohh sorry in the excitement I just forgot to introduce myself...
So I am Adharika, a joyful and bubbly girl who just finished her studies and a content creator too.
And Siya is my best friend, I adore her so much that my day literally starts and ends with talking to her..
The fun part ..today I didn't talk to her but the good thing is I am going to meet her and you know what's the catch she doesn't even know I am coming todayyy..
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I reached home by lunchtime..and my mother had prepared my favorite Rajma Rice for me , I missed her cooking so much.
I just love her
After eating I took a nap and then I was going to meet siya.
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When I woke up from the nap ...I called Siya's mother and asked
Me : Good evening aunty
Siya's Mom : Good evening Adharika, How are you?
Me : I am fine aunty...How about you and siya?
Siya's Mom : We both are fine.
Me : Aunty where is Siya?
Siya's Mom : Beta she has gone to ABC cafe with Meera.
Me : Okay, aunty. Bye.
Perfect...Now I will suprise her there.
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As I reached there I saw Meera and Siya talking... while their back was facing me and they both were watching the city view
I slowed down my steps, smiling like a fool and walked to them and
Just a few more seconds,and I would hug her from behind and suprise her
But then I stopped
I didn't mean to eavesdrop,
I was close enough to them to hear what they were talking..
Close enough to hear words that would change everything..
Siya : You know what that girl Adharika she didn't call me today for the whole day and the best part My day couldn't get any better...
Meera : But 1 minute wasn't she your best friend?
Siya : Bestfriend my foot ...Bro she is just a timepass and a great headache to me
Meera being shocked raised her eyebrows to which
Siya : Don’t get shocked..just tell me does she look pretty? Or have you seen her dressing sense it's literally worse than my maid's!
Saying that siya rolled her eyes and said
Siya : Let's not talk anymore about her because I don't want to spoil my day..
And when I heard this felt like my whole world just shattered...
Everything around me froze ...
her each word pierced my heart..
But my heart is not ready to accept
wasn't she the same Siya who used to call our friendship forever?
Tears started flowing and
with a heavy heart
I turned back and went away with silence
And even in the traffic, all I could hear was silence which was left behind..
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By the time I reached home the sun had already set and my mother was in the kitchen so I hurriedly walked to my room and shut the door , sat on the floor, and hugged my knees and cried out, "what was my fault?"
I did give my best then why?
I kept crying.... and crying.
And for the next few days
I isolated myself ,
and just felt like a person who wasn't dead physically...
but mentally? I was...
This all kept on going for days
Not talking to people,
living alone ,
barely eating ,
giving up on everything,
not taking care of my health..
And checking my phone to see if Siya called or not
But she never did
Because maybe I didn't matter...
Though I was waiting for her to call...
And neither of us called.
Maybe because somewhere in a part of my heart
I started accepting that we can't force someone to stay..
But still it was hurting...
The isolation
The silence
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And one day in the silence I realized
For whom am I crying.. the one who left me?
I did give my best- that's all
It was not my fault
I made myself understand that..
this wasn't my loss.
It never was...
Everything in life happens for a reason
Maybe she was not the right one
And this thought changed me
I picked up my phone and deleted everything,
single picture that reminds me of the betrayal,
Deleted her contact.
And as the days passed
I started spending time with myself
be it journaling my thoughts
Or
Cooking myself some good food
Recognizing and comforting my inner self.
And shutting down to everyone,
who made me feel unworthy.
who destroyed my mental peace.
I stopped being available for everyone
Realized my worth
Rebuilt a whole new version of myself.
The silence I used as the weapon to build a new me and finding myself...
So stop looking for closure in others when you can find it within yourself...
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